Thursday, July 21, 2011

Lately...

I've been thinking a lot lately and there are a lot of things I need to do better, or just do period.



1) Be more grateful for what I have. I think I'm grateful inside but I should definitely be more vocal about it. Everyone knows I'm vocal about lots of stupid stuff so I'm going to try to be more vocal about important stuff.



2) Take more pictures of Bentley. I spend all day everyday with the girl, thinking about how adorable she is and loving her smiles and laughs and funny little faces but for some reason I fail to take hardly any pictures of such things. What kind of mom am I?



3) Enjoy myself. I kind of stress a lot. Like way too much. About really stupid stuff. I don't think I seem that way to other people but in my head it's crazy. I'm crazy. I just want everything to be perfect for Bentley and not have anything messed up. Crazy I know.



4) Be more positive. I wonder if I come off as a negative nancy. Usually I just say I'm being realistic but I want to be more optimistic. Yea, that would be good for me. and for everyone else.



5) Be more patient. I love my schedule. love love love it. Before bentley i never veered from my schedule at all. not for anything. unfortunately babies don't love schedules like i do. at least mine doesn't and from what i hear most other people's babies don't either. Its been a tough transition. I need to be more patient and just accept that she is never going to sleep at the same time or wake up at the same time or do anything at the same time that she did it the day before. It's. So. Hard. but I know we'll get it eventually.


This little gal is 4 months old this Saturday. Can't believe it. Love her.